My DH is AWESOME!

Check out the new Church @ The River website my dh spent hours putting together! I think it's so much better than the old site. It's "alive" where the old site seemed stagnant. He and Pastor Jerm are still working on it, actually. They had someone create a new logo for the church and made the website much more modern, hip, cool... LOL!



The link is on the right side of my page or you can get to it here... http://www.churchattheriver.org/.



I've been slightly reluctant to admit it openly, but God really has blessed us by bringing us here. For once, I'm really not sure how to put into words all that is brewing in my heart and mind. A few months back, when the second Narnia movie came out, Brian proclaimed that the title tract, THIS IS HOME, by Switchfoot, was now "our family song". I was reluctant to agree...until lately. The more i think about it, the more obvious it's becoming that where we are is right where God wants us. However, I still call NJ "home" while I also call TN "home". I'm not so sure that "home" is a particular State. I think it's that place in your heart where you know you belong. In so many ways, I know I still belong to the NJ family and friends who are so important to me. In other ways, I know I belong here in TN too. We belong in this house on this street in this neighborhood in this city. God wants us here. We belong at Church @ The River. We were meant to be here. It is part of God's purpose for our family. He has plans for us here.



This Is Home lyrics



I've got my memories
Always inside of me
But I can't go back
Back to how it was.

I believe you now
I've come too far
No I can't go back
Back to how it was
Created for a place I've never known

[Chorus]This is home
Now I'm finally back to where I belong
Where I Belong
Yeah, this is home
I've been searching for a place of my own
Now I've found it
Maybe this is home
This is home

Belief over misery
I've seen the enemy
And I won't go back
Back to how it was
And I got my heart set on what happens next
I got my eyes wide it's not over yet
We are miracles and we're not alone

[Chorus]

And now after all my searching
After all my questions
I'm gonna call it home
I've got a brand new mindset
I can finally see the sunset
I'm gonna call it home

[Chorus]

Now I know
Yeah, this is home
I've come too far
And I won't go back
Yeah, this is home

Two years ago I followed with Brian to TN because Brian followed God. Being here is not our idea. It's HIS. He has a Plan and a Purpose for every one of His children. His plans and purposes are always Good, although they don't always feel that way. There's been alot of joy here; but there's also been alot of pain. God is asking me now to lay aside the hurt from that pain and surrender once again to Him. So that He may fulfill those purposes and that plan in my life. So that I may know the depth of the LOVE of JESUS for ME. It's time to lay aside my hurt and pick up His cross and follow HIM. Time to let HIM "love on me" as they say down here in the South. If I could fully know how very much Jesus loves me, I'd be a very different woman. I'd still be me; but a gentler and kinder and more loving me. I'm ready for more miracles. I'm choosing to trust Him again. I'm hoping in the God who says He does not leave or forsake me, the God who always keeps His promises; for my God is a Promise.

I'm writing these words for all to see; but I'm really writing these words for me. I pray that I will not take these words lightly or forget them tomorrow! I hope that I will once again begin to live surrended to Jesus, trusting that He is a trustworthy God who loves me so thoroughly. And that as I learn these things, He will use me to teach others, that we can learn together. I miss being used by God. I miss the excitement, the fire. I miss being close to God, to talking and listening and sharing and being still. I look forward to what He plans to do in my life!